Enjoy a little update of my week! It had many glorious highs, firsts I will treasure forever, endings to allow for new beginnings, and the birth of new dreams.
Favorite new food: My local grocery store always does buy one, get one free deals so I try to buy whatever is on sale for the week to save me money. This week, I stumbled across these delicious peanut butter cup cookies that I am thoroughly enjoying with ice cream at night. Also, I am going to marry Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked ice cream because after throwing myself a pint party on Wednesday for getting one of my writings published, I have fallen MADLY in love. And yes, I proudly ate the whole pint in one sitting. It was too good to deprive myself of it!
TV obsession: I am loving this season of “Dancing with the Stars.” I get so humbled watching Noah Galloway dance. That is a TRUE overcomer. He shows that there is never an excuse that you cannot do something. It is all in your thinking. Believe you can and you will. Eliminate the doubt, and take the risk. Also, I get the farmer fix watching Chris Soules. I would not be opposed to doing Farmersonly.com if I could find a clone of Chris on it…
Biggest challenge: This week has been all about ridding my life of toxicity. I let go of a great deal of things associated with my past in the form of things, thoughts, people, and habits. It was a very spur of the moment decision. I felt myself getting weighed down and preoccupied with certain things that were not associated with the direction I am heading in life and the person I am creating. I thought it would be a lot harder than it was. However, it was one of the easier challenges I have done in my quest for authentic living. It showed me that my heart was already prepared and this was a long time in the making just waiting to be acted upon.
The other night I was driving home from work and out of nowhere walks a peacock. I knew it was a sign from God. I say that because it was a rough day, and I was struggling with life choices and challenges. It was making me question the leaps I was taking. A man from my church gave me a book about being a peacock in a land of penguins a couple years back when I was initially embarking on my journey of authenticity. Seeing that peacock was my reminder of love, support, beauty in going against the normal, and also that I was born to stand out through my triumphs made from my struggles. All of the trying times are making me into the peacock.
I have decided to get rid of my cable and save some money. A lot of things I can watch on my computer, and those that I can’t means more time to do….well, whatever I have been procrastinating. I also have a new love of binge watching sermons from a church I cannot wait to visit in North Carolina so the no cable isn’t too much of a loss. I have an endless supply of sermons to catch up on to edify and enrich me.
Tomorrow is my sissy’s birthday, and I cannot wait until the day we are once again together on our birthdays to celebrate. My sister was a huge force pushing me to recovery because I dealt with much sadness that she lost precious years with her little sissy. I wanted to be able to give her the experience of having me as her sister again; someone to give life advice to, call and share exciting news or to have random talk, go out for drinks. Her sister was robbed from her. One day we were playing together and laughing, and before we both knew it, I was brought into a world that shut her out. I know I cannot give her those years back, but I can give her many more beautiful ones in the future with us as the beautiful, strong women we are today.
I took a cute quiz about which Anne Hathaway character I would be, and I got Mia Thermopolis from “The Princess Diaries.” It said, “A lot of responsibility is needed in order to be the next princess, or queen, of Genovia, but you can totally handle it! Because of your klutziness and lack of maturity — the other royals don’t believe you’re fit for the role. Over time, you’re able to show how regal you are and everyone adores you!” This answer was what I was secretly hoping for because I used to watch this movie every weekend when it first came out on VHS (yes, NOT DVD). I cherish the memory of the movie because it was the last time I went to the theater with my grandmother. She loves Julie Andrews, and I could not wait to see it with her as a young girl.
A dream that developed this week: I would love one day to go to Africa. My heart is calling me there is some capacity. I am not yet sure for what, but it seems I cannot get away from it. Everywhere I look or go, Africa follows in some form.
All in one day I had to file my taxes and got summoned for jury duty. Where is Peter Pan to take me to Neverland because I am not really enjoying this growing up thing right now. Some days, I am envious of that young guy for getting to escape adulthood. But then other days, I fall absolutely in love with what being my age brings and so excited for all that awaits me as I fulfill my purpose.
New music find: A friend of mine shared one of the artist’s songs on Facebook, and after listening to that one, I found myself playing all of their CDs. I heard this song called “Love is War” by Hillsong United and immediately bought it on iTunes. There is such power to the lyrics, such truth to the words, such heart in the singing. Here is the link if you would like to listen.
Love, light, and bravery, J.L.