Start Where You Are
When it comes to making a change in your life that may seem daunting, scary, impossible, there is no “perfect” time. There will never be that ideal moment to leap into the unknown. I have learned going through recovery that whether I was ready or not, I had to do it. I had to let go, stop behaviors, listen to my heart, allow my body to get healthy, sacrifice who I was to become who I was meant to be. Life would not wait around for me forever. My body wouldn't hold out until I came to my senses. I had to stop over thinking and overanalyzing it all and just do it. Not everything has an answer and not everything can be explained. I cannot twiddle my thumbs and wait for everything to align, to suddenly have all the answers I need appear in the back of the book of life. My mind was going to fight me and there would be more moments of endless thoughts to come, but I could not use that as an excuse to retreat to the world with familiarity that only brought pain and limited my dreams. The sooner I fought, the quicker those moments would be a thing of the past, the faster I would become a part of a more beautiful life. I encourage you to take the leap today. Do not wait until you have the courage or everything is perfect. Just move forward, and embrace what can be. God is going to be right next to you. You are protected. You will survive. You will heal.