When Your Tomorrow Comes

And so she decided to start living the life she imagined...

My tomorrow came.

That day you say today will be when you change. When you give yourself a fresh start. When you let go. That day that keeps getting pushed back, piled high with excuses of why the tomorrow of yesterday will just not be the right day. Why you must postpone until another tomorrow. Why this tomorrow, although needing to have been seen for months or years, is too soon. The day you plan and dream and wish for but never act on. The day always on the horizon but you never allow the sun to rise on it. The day you have convinced yourself you are not worthy enough, not strong enough, not courageous enough, not willing enough to live.

My tomorrow came.

I could sit here and say I should have done it months ago or even years ago. I could sit here and pour out judgment on myself for the time it took me to open my eyes to this tomorrow. I could sit here and condemn myself for the time I wasted prolonging what needed to happen a long time ago. But all the coulds I will not bring to the light. I will not let rent a space in my mind. I will not let take over the pure joy in my heart over the arrival of this day regardless of how many tomorrows went by without me touching them. Because there is so much to celebrate.

My tomorrow came.

And it came at the perfect time. I said yes to it at the right moment. I needed to live out all those painful and trying yesterdays to know what to do with this tomorrow. Had this tomorrow come any sooner without the experiences and lessons of my yesterdays, I would not have survived. I would have crumbled under the weight. I would have fallen back even deeper from where I came. I would not have known how to handle the battles this tomorrow will inevitable present me. Every second, every fight, every defeat, every victory was required for me to be able to rise out of bed this morning and live a new life.

My tomorrow came.

And it is the beautiful day I have ever lived.

J.L.

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