Your Future You is Not Where You Are
It is important to remember that you cannot become what you need to be by remaining what you are. It is you who will get you to where you want to be. You have to accept responsibility for your actions that are deterring you from that place and that person. For so long, I was unhappy with myself and my actions. What I was doing had me moon walking away from my goals, gradually and seemingly gracefully slipping back so people would not notice the true magnitude of what was happening. I had to start moving forward again. The only way to make that happen was to make changes and do so continuously. I had to wake up with a goal, a plan in place to actively challenge my routine and the Jenna with eating disordered thoughts within me. I had to take at least one chance every day and still do now. Taking a chance is about overcoming fears and putting faith in yourself and the situation. I have to rely on the hope that my heart’s desires, which are what these decisions of health are based on, will not lead me astray or betray my trust. I have to hope that it knows what is best for me. I have to trust that it will bring out authentic Jenna. I have to have faith in my life, believe that I was not brought this far, endured such great pain, and survived through it all only to live with even more difficulties. I have to trust the pain has purpose. I have to believe in myself and that I have the strength and the capability to live in health and that I, Jenna Laird, deserve to have a fulfilling, love filled, happy life. I encourage you to do the same, to keep challenging yourself to move you closer to the authentic you. Trust your heart as you step into the unknown.